I've been called by the Lord to testify the things He has blessed me with. 

Lord, thank you for the visions you have given me.  Thank you for giving me a new heart.  Thank you for this enlightened soul.  Thank you for this new body.  Thank you for this new mind.  Thank you for this wisdom.  Thank you for this everlasting life.  Thank you for your mercy.  Thank you for your grace.  Thank you for your Son, Jesus Christ.  Thank you for showing me how to Love like your Son.  Thank you for the ultimate sacrifice for my sins in order to save me.  Thank you for instilling the love of your Son, Jesus Christ, into my heart.  Thank you for your Love.  Praise to You Lord, Praise to You.  I Love You.

My faith in God's existence is as strong as a mountain and I'm blessed to have been shown many things by Him in my life.  I know these things may not be normal for a lot of people, but they have been normal for me.  I don't know why God has given me this Vision.  Maybe His purpose was for me to give my Testimony?  Maybe this is just one of many purposes?  I know one purpose is to give hope to others and to help build faith amongst my brothers and sisters.

After many real time experiences, I decided to start a spiritual journal. It’s hard to explain these in typing, but I’ll do my best.  Every experience spoken of below is something that happened in a real time environment (no delays).  As in, there was a thought and an immediate response to my thought by outside surroundings.  As I sit here typing, His grace is so amazing when I think about it.  I don’t know why He has paid so much attention to me.  I’m just happy for His Love, Mercy and Grace.  Thank you Lord.  These events have gone on for years and I never documented them.  There were many more examples that I just have forgotten about.  As I remember them and/or if God continues to bless me with these visions, I will add them. 

I’d like to caution close friends or family members that may read this.  There may be some things that may be hard to read.  Please understand that my life has evolved into a life of God and there aren’t any worries.  These things were necessary in order to achieve my current state with God.  Praise the Lord.

Spike and the Sacred Heart of Jesus - My first vision
Approximately around 1996 - In my bedroom, I had a sacred heart of Jesus picture sitting on the floor, leaning up against the wall.  It was a house warming gift from my grandma and I hadn’t hung it up yet.  The picture was facing the foot of my bed (the headboard of my bed was against the opposite wall).  There was nothing else against that wall outside of my dresser.  One night I was questioning God during prayer.  I was going through a rough time in life.  Mom and Dad got a divorce and many other stressful events were happening.  I was looking out the window at the stars praying, I said "God, I need to know you're out there watching over me."  I was lying in bed on my back and my dog was lying with me, Spike.  Within seconds of asking this of God, my dog jumped off my bed.  I leaned up to look to see if he was at the door, needing to go outside.  My dog's rear was facing me, wagging his tail.  He was, literally, nose to nose (within 2-3") with Jesus.  When I sat up and saw this, my dog looked over his shoulder back at me, then looked back at Jesus, wagging his tail.  This picture is the sacred heart picture, and it stands around 30" tall by 20" wide.  My dog was the perfect height to be standing face to face w/ Jesus.  I called him to me and he came back to bed.  God's grace and Jesus' presence was very overwhelming.  I literally felt Him standing there in my bedroom at the foot of my bed.  I had a large vibration over my body.  Needless to say, the spirit of Christ was very overwhelming.  I remember falling asleep to God’s grace.  Very powerful. 

Music
One day I was praying and inquiring of the Lord.  I was wondering if I’m on the wrong path and I was asking for assistance and clarification.  I had music on at this time.  As I thought/prayed "Am I on the right path?", this verse plays right after asking: “I'm satisfied w/ you”.  A song by Hank Williams Sr.

Thank you for saving me Lord
This is one of the most impacting ones of my life.  The night before this happened, I asked the Lord to send me His Son.  I needed Him.  I needed to be saved.  I asked Him whole heartedly to send me His Son and save me.  I have done this many times before.  I was stuck in another rut in my life and I needed Him.  The next day, I was sitting on my computer playing video games.  While playing video games, I would always question myself and seek God, talk to Him, etc.  I was in my zone of talking with God while stopping game play.  I was zoned out in thought, completely full of spirit... whereas everything around me wasn’t in focus/almost non-existent.  I felt God's presence.  I remember an overwhelming feeling, followed by a thought that the very next thing that happens in my life will be God speaking to me.  I began to alertly wait for God’s message because I knew the very next thing in my surroundings was going to be from Him.  A few seconds later, my friend val said something.  I asked her what she just said and she said she was singing a song.  I asked which song, and it was Lee Ann Womack - The Fool.  Here are the lyrics and I’ll explain along the way why this was so powerful.  His grace is truly amazing.

“You don't know me but I know who you are
Mind if I sit down (very powerful when I heard this as I knew He was there with me).
Do I look familiar if I don't well I should
I'm sure you've seen me around (He has talked to me a lot and showed me many signs leading up to this point)
I know you've probably heard my name
Though we've not been introduced
I'm the fool in love with the fool
Who's still in love with you

(The night before I asked God to send me His Son, which I've done before)
If you've got a minute I'll buy you a drink
I've got something to say
It might sound crazy but last night in his sleep
I heard him call out your name
This ain't the first time he's done it before (as I said earlier, I've done this many times before)
And it's hard to face the truth
I'm the fool in love with the fool
Who's still in love with you

I know love is a fragile thing
And I'm trying hard to make it last
But it ain't easy holding on to my dream
When he's holding on to the past
(I would keep holding on to my past versus moving forward).

(While typing this and replaying the song, I began feeling that Jesus is sitting behind me, saying these words of the song to me.  I turned around and noticed the Sacred Heart of Jesus candle behind me on the table.  I picked it up and read the back of it - "Oh, Sacred Heart of Jesus, filled with infinite love, broken by my ingratitude, pierced by my sins, and yet, loving me still, relying on thy promise of infinite charity when you said, "Come to me all you that labor and are burdened and I will refresh you."  I come to thee and in the lowliness of my heart earnestly beg thee to grant me your loving help.  Amen." - This 'infinite love' and "loving me still" goes hand and hand with this song that i'm listening to.)

Just one more thing before I go
I'm not here to put you down
You don't love him and that's a fact
Girl I've seen you around
But you hold his heart in the palm of your hand
And it's breaking mine in two
'Cause I'm the fool in love with the fool
Who's still in love with you

I'm the fool in love with the fool
Who's still in love with you"

(This last verse puzzled me for a while, but I just went to the bathroom and I think I figured it out.  The "girl" reference is possibly my flesh and/or a part of me, within me, but not my soul.  My flesh, or the negative energies.  As in, the song meaning - "I'm not here to put you down.  But these negative energies do not love Him, and that's a fact, girl, I've seen you around. The girl holds my heart in the palm of her hands, and it's breaking His heart in 2.  Cuz I'm the fool in love with a fool, who's still in love with you."  When I was in the bathroom just now, I was thinking flesh vs spirit and how there is the other side of the coin in me.  As I'm thinking this, I see on the back of a magazine's cover, "The UnUniverse".  I believe this was a confirmation that the verse is meant to speak to the flesh).

My Angel
Around 1996-97, I was going through a hard time in life.  The love of my life seemed to not be materializing, mom and dad recently divorced, dad sunk down to the bottom (he never was a drinker and now I was pulling him out of the bar 4-5 nights a week), and a few other things were testing me.  At night, I began to pray as I did on occasion.  I guess it wasn't really a prayer.  I don't like thinking about this prayer because it wasn't good.  I began to yell at God, violently, loudly, and thrashing in bed.  I was screaming, thrashing, yelling, asking why, asking Him to stop this, I was crying hard, yelling at Him for these things in my life, etc.  When I completed this rage, I closed my eyes.  When my eyes closed, a beautiful lady appeared in the left side of my vision, just her head.  The face appeared from bottom left and moved slowly upward until her full head was in view.  Her hair was slicked back and she had beautiful eyes.  Her compassion, love and peace was felt.  I felt very much at peace.  I heard her say very clearly, "Everything is going to be ok..." without her lips moving.  I didn't "hear" it w/ the ears, I heard it in my mind, in my thoughts.  Then she gave a slow and slight nod and I heard/felt "understand?"  I said yes w/ my mind.  Her face then disappeared downward in the same manner it entered my vision.  I took a deep breath, felt very much at peace, felt God's grace, was very thankful, rolled over and went to sleep.  "Everything is going to be ok", and it is.  Praise the Lord.

Flowers from God
One day I was at work, extremely stressed.  I was having thoughts that my new boss didn't appreciate my knowledge.  I just got off of a conference call with him on a topic whereas I had good experience in and he made a decision that, in my opinion, wasn't good for the company.  I decided to go outside to clear my mind.  I went out by the loading dock and leaned up against a metal railing.  I remember saying in my self-talk, "My boss doesn't appreciate me."  Then I thought to myself how these aren't healthy thoughts and God doesn't want this for me.  I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and during my exhale I thought/said "God appreciates me".  As I thought this, with my eyes closed, my eyes lit up with the sun breaking through the clouds.  I felt God's rays of light hitting me, kinda saying 'thatta boy'.  The sun got brighter..and brighter..and brighter (with my eyes still closed).  The wind blew, I smiled and thanked God.  I opened my eyes and roughly 15-20yards in front of me was a tree.  I watched as the wind knocked a ball of leaves out of the tree.  I was smiling and said to God in my thoughts, "let me guess, you're going to blow those over to me (like sending me flowers)".  As that thought finished, the wind kicked up again and the ball of leaves tumbled towards me.  I watched them tumble until they stopped, directly between my feet where I stood.  I picked them up and cherished them, then thanked the Lord for His gift.  When I think back now about that ball of leaves, it had 2 branches going out like a V.  Almost like a heart.  I wish I would have paid closer attention because they may have been shaped like a heart, but I can't say for certain.

Grace
Once again, God's Grace shows up again, literally.  This always happens when I am fully in-spirit. I was riding my bike and was in-spirit w/ the Lord. I was looking at His sunshine, feeling the breeze, smiling and swaying my bike back and forth. I was full of thanks and I was very much of spirit. I felt Him in the rays of of the sun and in the wind.  It was as-if I was at one w/ my surroundings.  During the peak of my spiritual moment, I started to cross a bridge.  As I was thanking God for everything, thanking Him for the beautiful day, I felt like I was going to see something from the Lord.  I looked over the bridge. The first thing my eyes fell on was the side of a semi-truck with the word GRACE in big letters, as it moved underneath the bridge. You're amazing God. Thank you once again for showing me your presence.

Saving Grace

During a very rough time in my life, I attempted suicide.  I was sitting in my truck w/ a hose coming from the muffler.  After a few breaths, I knew I was going to be out soon.  I said - "Lord, if this isn't to happen, please show me."  As I said this, a bird lands outside my driver side window on a twig.. it was around 1 foot away from me.  It landed, looking directly at me.  It cocked its head sideways like "what are you doing?"  I immediately opened the door and got out.